I'm letting myself dip deep into a place that I do not want to go.  I had a dream that I was leading a parade of people and as we walked on a path of stone, we entered a wide opening, we continued on the path and went through another opening that was a bit smaller and then another, still smaller and so on until we reached an opening that we could not fit through.  It was terrifying to thin that there were hundreds of people behind me that would continue to move through the openings and pile up upon us at the head of the pack with no where to go.  I awoke with a feeling of dread that we would all be crushed by the pack, and that it would all be my fault for leading us to our end.

I so feel this way about each day now that I am responsible for leading my children, co-workers, subordinates, friends down a path that I do not know how to navigate myself.  At first it all appears to be fine, understandable, easy, even fun.  And then it comes to a point where it becomes more difficult, but manageable. Now I am at the point where I will be crushed by the path itself, unable to move forward, and with no way to return to the safety of the previous path.  ow will I emerge from this?  How can I continue to live as if I am capable of leading these important followers when I cannot rely on my own instincts.  Where are we to go?

 

Okay universe, do your stuff - please guide me to do and know what I need to get out of this funk - or send me an angel who can help.  Boy I miss my Dad!